It had been a hard day. I’ve been busy as a beaver with the American Sweetheart project where we are making paper bouquets to sell for Valentine’s day and then for every bouquet sold we are giving one to a Gold Star wife. On top of our normal crazy life of 13 kids doing 17 sports practices a day (that’s not an exaggeration by the way), schoolwork, our new Bible study beginning today and other various commitments we have collectively as a family and that the children have individually. I had been “doggie paddling” all day and it felt very much like I was trying to cross the Pacific and keep my head above water. Know what I mean?
More than once I had to remove myself from the crowd and cry a few tears in my bathroom.
Today it just seemed like my very best was not good enough.
Oh, I prayed. I remembered the promises. I know the drill. Trust me, I remembered my own advice from chapter four of my book about being overwhelmed, and I tried to listen to it.
It was just a tough day.
And then around 9pm my sweet daughters said,”Mama, sit down. Watch this video.”
Like I had time to watch some dumb youtube video.
But seeing my red nose and bloodshot eyes they said, “No really mom. Sit down and watch this.”
So I did.
And I laughed and cried and ugly snorted through my tears over this precious man and his indomitable spirit.
“You should be proud of who you are…right now…at this very moment.”
Well Zach, I’m not proud. At all. But if you’re saying so, maybe I could look at a few of the good things I got done today…
“Ok ok ok! We’re back up! Sometimes you gotta pull yourself back up! Because you know you can do it! Even when you’re sliding off the treadmill!”
Wow, Zach. I spent all day feeling like I am sliding off the treadmill. Physically, spiritually, emotionally I had been completely sliding off all day. Until you showed me. You told me. I can do it. I can and I will.
“You’re a lot better than where you started. As a baby. Who crapped himself all the time. You do that a lot less now! And I’m proud of you for it!”
Wow, thanks Zach. You’re right. I have gotten a lot better since then!
“Even if you’re not exactly where you want to be, you’re still making progress.”
You are so right. Progress, not perfection
Moms, it’s tough. I really really really know it is. But if this man, facing these incredible odds can laugh and bring us all such joy even through his adversity, then we have to laugh too. Even if it’s through tears. So watch the video and just enjoy. And save it for the next time you have a day like my yesterday. And here’s to today. May it be better and even if it isn’t…may we rejoice in the day that the Lord has made…no matter what.