I think I’ve held it together pretty well.
Now If you ask Ryli and Bliss and the other sibs they may disagree…but I think I’m doing alright. Then I run Ry and Bliss to the mall for some last minute thingamabobs and even as I walk past Baby Gap, I can remember Blissy smiling so huge in her carseat/baby carrier when she was three months old outside BabyGap. Her dimples and the little ski slope nose. It was yesterday I swear. But in reality, it was 18.5 years ago. And it went by in a blink.
I glanced at the GapKids window and my lip quivered. In the window was a sweet little eyelet dress that reminded me of the one Ryli wore on the beach for our Christmas photos. She was two. She screamed as soon as her feet touched the ground and she hated the sand. The photo op was a total fail but the best pic of that night 16 years ago came when Daly Kay was walking back up the stairs and in true princess form she lifted her little eyelet dress to keep the sand off of it but simultaneously showed the beach-goers her underwear every step up the stairs.
And just like that I had to hold back my ridiculousness in front of my excited young ladies be-boppingly thrilled and brimming over with all kinds of expectations for their new adventure at school.
I am happy. I am so proud of them. I just realize that our lives, our family, will always look different from this point forward.
And that’s a good thing.
But it doesn’t make it easy.
It’s our last night together all under one roof.
And I think there may be several of us who don’t sleep a wink.